Life is always full of surprises and I feel like if you don't pay attention close enough you can easily miss little messages that can make a big impact on how you live.
When you are just going along living your life you most likely don't stop to really think about what might happen if you were to get life pausing sick. You probably don't think about how it might make you feel emotionally and psychologically either. At least I didn't until last month. Most of the time I think about stupid shit (yes I said shit on a mom blog) that does not even matter in the grand scheme of things.
I would say that I am a generally healthy person. I do have type 1 diabetes but I don't ever let that hold me back health wise. In fact before a month ago I hadn't been to a regular family doctor in about 10 years.
So here is the recent story...
On a random day about 7 weeks ago today I woke up feeling pretty horrible. Aw wahh poor me, but this was different. It felt like the flu...kind of. I took my temperature and it was 103. This was very bad sick timing since I had to pack our house and get ready to move. I brushed it off the best I could and just hoped it was one of those 24 or 48 hour things. Two weeks later my fever was still persistent and never went below 101. Now if you have had a fever before as an adult let me just say it sucks all the life out of you and you basically feel like you want to sleep all day. I decided it was time to end my hiatus of not seeing a doctor and made an appointment.
The doctor I saw was wonderful. He asked a million questions and checked me out completely. No sore throat, no ear infection no problems with my thyroid nothin....except a weird high fever and a constant crappy feeling. He told me to come back in a week if it was still there. Week four I went back. I started feeling worse and my fever was still high and persistent. At this point he really did not like this. He ordered dozens of blood tests, a pregnancy test (not pregnant woohoo) and just about everything else you can imagine.
A few days later my results came back. He called me personally. He said that everything came back completely normal. White blood cell count was great and I looked healthy as a horse according to my blood work. He said a fever that high and that persistent in an adult is not normal though and we would get to the bottom of this but as of right now he was diagnosing me with FUO (fever of unknown origin). I started googling and read that some people have FUO for years and they just had to live with it. Greaaattt.
I started to forget what it felt like to feel normal and healthy. So I just started doing everything I do anyways but with a fever and a constant crappy sick feeling. I realized how much I took advantage of the most important thing you have, your health. I missed running, really working out and just enjoying moments with my family where I didn't feel flu-y or fever-ish. I did some serious praying and asked God to please let me feel like my old self again.
About a week and a half ago I woke up and before getting out of bed realized I didn't have that weird fever feeling. It had been 6 weeks with a fever at this point. I got up and checked my temp. It was 98.7. The even better part was I felt normal, like get up and have a cup of coffee and maybe even go to the gym normal. I said a long thank you prayer and started my day with a little more enthusiasm than I ever have before.
This whole weird unexplained sickness and then super fast healing taught me a few life lessons that I never want to forget...
1) Your health is the most priceless thing you could possibly ever have. If you have your health you have everything. Things and material objects are nice but nothing compares to feeling and being healthy.
2) Do more of the things you love to do. Life is just too short to waste your time doing things you do not love to do. Same goes for people. Spend time with people who lift you up and you truly enjoy being around.
3) Do not complain about stupid stuff. There are bigger things in life to worry and complain about.
4) Be thankful for each day and enjoy the little moments with your family. At the end of the day the people in your house are the ones that are the most important and they will always love you, even at your worst.
I was unsure if I wanted to share this slightly personal experience on my blog but I feel like in the end it has changed me for the better. For that reason I found it important enough to share how this blur of a month impacted my life and made me realize things I might have taken for granted before.